-不知道为什么-

不知道为什么，长得越大烦恼也变得越来越多，

每一天都在想着很多有的没的，

已经尽力的在控制脑袋不再胡思乱想，

可是我怎么也控制不到，

每晚都会想了好一阵子才能够入睡，

可是也不见得睡得很甜啊，

我渴望从前那个爱睡的我，

一躺就能睡个呼天暗地，

没有烦恼脑袋也不会那么的顽皮，

睡醒了明天又是一个新的开始.

还有一年半就快毕业了，

怎么我似乎变得更担忧，

没有刚入学那时候的欢喜，

难道岁月真的那么不留人？

长越大自然就失去了那所谓的纯真？

看见小学弟学妹那么的开朗，

什么无聊事都做尽，

不禁开始觉得他们很好笑，

开始觉得他们有点幼稚，

思想也孓然不同，

我不想那样子，

那会显得我很老套诶!

真的好怀念两年前的我，

照片真的照得很美，

脸也好滑好滑，

而现在..........................

我连经常照镜子的勇气也没了，

看到别人越长越漂亮也开始觉得羡慕，

我，也只不过是那么的一般而已，

成绩也不比别人标青，

每个学期都是平平的那样子过，

虽然已经很努力了，

可能我的程度就只有那么的一般.

上课也总是为了上课而上课，

没有特别的目标，

不知道为什么，

开始喜欢搞自闭，

我喜欢一个人的世界，

因为那样子我可以无忧无虑的做我想要做的东西，

我不必看别人的脸色来办事，

我也不喜欢别人指点我做这做那，

每一次都只有我答应别人所吩咐的事情，

明明你也只是那么的一般，

何来到处要别人为你做这做那，

试想想，我需要别人帮助的时候也没有几个会来帮我啊~

一个人的时候，我却很害怕孤单，

我不喜欢孤独的生活，

我希望有你的陪伴，

因为你会把我捧在手心疼，

细心的呵护我照顾我，

所以在孤单的时候总是特别的想念你.

或许我真的被宠坏啦，

在家有爸爸妈妈疼进骨子里，

有权力让我做每一件事，

现在的我，

应该是时候从梦中清醒，

为自己所做的事而付责任吧，

毕竟，

外面可是没有家那么的舒适温暖.

长大了，

是时候开始接受事实的残酷，

形形色色的人群，

等待着我去考验，

还有家中的父母等待着我学成归来，

尽孩子的份，

去养育他们...

加油吧!没有任何事情能够难倒我，

我就不相信我不能当一个独立的女生!

*写到这里，心里不自觉的又开始想起你了，我很需要你呢~



Sweet memory 27-8-2010

Oopsss!!!This post should be posted since 2 months ago,

yet I'm so lazy to post it out,

and again,sorry for my laziness and dump my blog aside,

as it was before my exam week and I'm so lazy to update it,tehee~

Back to the topic,

this is the first ever time that I went for a trip with all of u,

feel so excited and awaiting too..

Loneliness is always kill me,so this trip was really amazing!!!

Going down to kl and met up with dear,which just back from Phuket trip,

I believe that this week will be the most enjoyable moment of u,agree?

I'm really happy to enjoy the moment that being together with u,xD

Spent one night in Subang before we went to Cameron =)

Another day,woke up nt so early in the morning,

get ready and wait for our driver of the day,

Face is in bad condition throughout the month,

no mood to dress up myself,

ended up wif aunty look =.=''''

Met with him after a while,

waiting for another car to start our journey,

most of our time is spent on long gai-ing while we are waiting..

About 12pm,we finally start our journey,

chit-chatting all the way,

and all of us are wondering why there is a super duper carefully driver on that day???hahaxx..

Only he will know it..

The roads are really zigzag,

till I felt so faint and almost vomit for many times,

prayed so hard that I can reach our destination earlier..

Passing through a nature waterfall just down of the Cameron top of hill,

It's so amaze that we can actually breathe in as much as fresh air as we can,

meanwhile feeling the cool air that were blowing continuosly..

I love the feel!!!

nice isn'it?

Took few photos before we continue our journey

I'm really nt mean to take this photo,it's just so coincidentally, xD

Spot the bridges in the middle,it added on the beauty of the waterfall

Old shops selling souvenirs,it's chio~

After walking around and buy some food there,

we started our journey to the top of hill...

Along the way,cold wind is blowing,

I can feel that I'm exactly living in the cold country,

enjoying the freshness of the air,

really hope that I'm living there for the entire of my life,^.^

After almost half an hour,we finally reach to the top..

Spend so much time to find our accommodation there,

passed by many old houses,

pray the most in our heart that we wont stay on such house,

especially our driver of the day,tehee~

He's scare so much to stay on those place..

After dunno how many hours,

we finally found our accommodation,

it's totally out of our expectations,

it was so so so lousy,as in my word,

and we'd no choices,

I'm wondering why we paid so much,

but the accomodation is really disappointed me,

I wont stay there anymore!!!!

Resting for the entire night,

spend all the time chit-chatting~

Day II  28-8-2010

Following our plan,

we'll visit all the places from the top to down,

our first destination of the day will be ROSE FARM~

nothing interesting much,

yet we have to pay RM4 as the entrance fees..

Roses represent romantic

Roses are really nice there~

Photos that we took inside rose farm

Bii was the camera man of the day on most of the time,

he didnt like to camwhore as much,

most of the time was I forcing him to do that with me xD

Here another photo that I love so much on the day

Walking around and took as many photos as we can,

really enjoy the moment being silly with each other,

acting stupid pose there,

here another photo with all cutie faces, *wink*

Saw a lil museum about rose valley,

nothing much attractive me there,

as there were many roses that I never heard and also saw before,

spot an unique plant there,

 It's special rite?

After spending almost 1 hour there,we heading up to the watercress valley,

that day is believed to be the day that full with bunch of photos,

I cant upload here as it's too much,

It's so comfort to have a look on this all green view!

Now only I realized that water cress that I ate usually is planted those way,

It's too awesome,

and all those plants are planted so naturally and rich with nutritious.

The weather on that day is not too hot,

so we can only walking around in the valley,

finding whether is it any special places for us to take our picture..

Photos are always a mean for us to capture all those nice memory,

Haha,dear is always being the victim~

Gurls team,we are always the most photogenic ppl,teehee~

Sweet huh? >.<!!!

A group photo of us that I like the most too =)

Then,one of the gang suggested that we had a photo acting Titanic,

I'm wondering why they have such really good idea huh??

Dear willing to take this photo with me too,

really love him so much,hee~

Jack&Rose???

 Xiao Xiang getting behtahan 2 of them,haha~

Hanging around and around for a while,

feel that it's time to leave there and headed up to our nxt destination,

last photo before we left there,

Watercress tea is really nt nice for me >.<

Visited strawberry farm,cactus farm and also many more after that,

we just have a visit on the strawberry farm as it cost us too expensive for the lil strawberries,

anyhow,took some photos before we left

All strawberries is freshly pluck,

 it looks so tasty!

Cactus that are more likely flower,

I'd bought 3 for RM5,

but I just left it aside at home,

I'm so lazy to take care of them,

 For the last day,we went to BOH tea farm,

a famous tea manufacturer in Malaysia,

we have to walk all the way to the top only can see those tea plantation,

I imagine that if I walk everyday and breathe in the fresh air there,

I'm sure to be a healthy gurl~

I can also have an opportunity to see worker to pluck those tea on the hill,

we should thank them to work so hard on those tea that we drank so often.

A not so complete photo before leaving there

It should be the end of our trip,

though we jz stay there for 3 days 2 nights,

it's already enough for us,

to have so much relax during the holidays,

especially staying at this fresh air paradise,

hope so much I can have such cool environment everyday.

I would say that,

I really enjoy this trip,

hope can have much more trip in the future.

Look terribly fat in this photo,aikss....





Jetlag

J.E.T.L.A.G.

You are gonna make me strong,

yet,I feel that I'm gonna defeated by you..

Arghhhh!!!it's really confusing,

I dun wanna have such feel!!

Bloggie is so frustrating recently,

I cant even post the photo that relate to my post,

make my mood spoil again and again,

even so lazy to update it..

No photos--the post will be not interesting at all,

it's like I'm talking like shyt here,

aiksss,nt bother to it anymore,

I just want to express it out..

As what I'm experiencing now,

 what so called "Jetlag"

is really challenging me..

It's fresh yet too strange for me,

just when the moment that you left me.

Jetlag

It makes me have to suit with another new environment that I never experience before.

It's tough starting from the beginning,

however I'll feel that I'm super strong while handling wif this sometimes,

perhaps,

it's really a test for just you and me..

No matter how,I'm still enjoying it..

But...I'm really hate it for some moment,

especially while I'm really thinking of u,

while I need you the most beside me,

while I feel upset,down,depress,

while I'm delighting,

it somehow turns into a wall that block me all the way to express it..

For me,I'm really a person that rely on other so much while I need them as much,

I'll find them all the way out,

just to share with them,

what I'm thinking now,

what I gonna do now..

yeah,it's me~

It's too sad that I have to endure on it myself,

I cant manage to do it all in just a moment,

I need time,

and also,

I need you...

Just when the time that I gonna told you something,

I cant find you easily,

I have to wait,and wait,and wait..

sometimes when I manage to wait u,

you are so bored to be my listener,

as you are also too busy with ur stuff there,

and I ended up with nothing too..

Gurls mah..always need somebody to be her listeners all the times,

but for a guy,

they rather choose to keep themselves alone,

solving the problems themselves,

yes,it's definitely TRUE!!!

If it's me,

I would choose to get your reply,

hope to hear you say as much as you can to me,

as only that I can feel that you are concern enough on me,

I know you like to keep it on ur heart,

I will understand it,

and try to learn to be tougher~

We are just oppose to ourself,

I like to talk all the way out what I'm thinking,

you are just like to keep it in ur heart,

so,sometimes,

I'll easily feel that you are not listening to what I'm saying,

and just simply answering me..

Just like every night,

I hope to get to you before I sleep,

I know it's impossible,

and you want me to sleep earlier too,

but I rather wait you,

till I really superb tired

only I'll give up..

For some small thingy,

though it's really simple,

but I like to tell you also,

hope to find more topic to chat with you,

hope you wont bored with me,

I'll feel bored too somehow,

but I still want to chat with you..

Maybe I'm true,

I'm really troublesome as u said,

nvm,I admit it,haaa~

The stupiest things is,

ever since you are angry with me,

or when we are quarrel with each other,

actually I'm really hate you on that time,

hope not to choi you,

think that you will scare of it and then talk to me back,

but it's too funny,

I'll always be the people that will talk back to you,

though I'm really angry on that time,

yet still want to reply what u ask me,

maybe that's love,

make me so appreciate to what I own,

till choose to cry alone,

and keep all the things in my mind,

that's the reason that I always said to you,

why I cant sleep well each night,haha~

It's really stupid right?

But now,

after so many challenging that we'd gone through,

I started to feel that,

our relationship is really getting strong and strong,

it's from our deep true heart..

That's why we manage to be together for so long though we cant meet everyday..

And I realize that,

I'm really childish before this,

think that only be with each other,

the relationship only can be last longer,

it's totally WRONG!!

Seeing through so many couples ended up with nothing,

I feel that I'm really the most ever blissful gurl in this world

and I wont give up so easy from now..

I just need time to suit with it,

perhaps I'll get the sweetest ever moment with you nxt time,

that's what I'll gain.

Okay,it's enough for now,

I just wanna share it out with you,

what I'm thinking of towards Jetlag..

For these moment,

though it'll be the hardest moment that I need to go through,

I'll still feel lucky and happy that,

you'll also go through this tough moment with me there,

hope we can bear with it together,

till the day we meet..

p/s: This will be a wordy post,as you all know that it's too trouble for me to upload photo here,I'll try to update it another day..